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Thank you everyone for your kindness regarding my last journal. Since then I am on new meds and finally got a shrink I actually like to talk to.
The meds gave me more energy to do things, but I am still trying to balance it out for its full benefits.
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But a new problem has arrived, bothering the hell out me.
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I'm trying to draw INCUBUS #4, but I can't seem to get over feeling inadequate, too rusty. I stay penciling one page over and over trying to get it to look right because I keep seeing mistakes.
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How dumb-ass to assume I could hop back into it. My skills seem okay (I think), yet its completely frustrating seeing the severe lack of progress in drawing INCUBUS #4. It sucks terribly.
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A bad tendency of distracting myself has developed. I waste time on the net and doing nothing important (like learning how to make a GIF), do chores, or research for INCUBUS (it feels like I'll never have enough information I need, like I'm missing something).

I WANT TO DRAW, I WANT TO DRAW, I WANT TO DRAW!! Drawing is ALL I HAVE. I'm trying to keep myself alive here.

So why can't I get my ass back on the horse that bucked me off?? X(
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Just to let everyone know.
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I have not been working on INCUBUS.
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I have not been working on Prometheus.
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I've been only doing what amuses me at the moment and reading books, and pretty much being brain-dead.
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I'm not sure what's wrong, but please be assured I am safe, NO thoughts of self-harm.
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I'm more confused as to why its getting damn harder for me to care about anything. I finally took a shower today after 4 or 5 days, slept most of the weekend in apathy. If it wasn't for needing to use the bathroom, I wouldn't have gotten out of bed at all.
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I'm gonna do my best to talk to someone today at the Behavioral Center.
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I want to understand what is wrong, why my meds seem to not help.
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Again, Please know I am not in danger, I AM NOT going to inflict self-harm---I'm just very apathetic, callous, lethargic...
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Its a mistake to post this on DA, as I am sure it will freak some of you guys out-- but I feel guilty for pretending to be busy when I'm not.
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So, lets hope I can get some results or something done today, or at least talk to someone somewhat competent at the Center.
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Talk to everyone soon!
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I just posted today some (somewhat) old SMUTT on my Tumblr. Stop by and take a look if you like!
yayoineko.tumblr.com [link]
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Also I have decided NOT to attend AWA (Anime Weekend Atlanta). Nothing personal, I just don't feel like I should go.
When I came to the decision to skip AWA, I felt better a big relief.
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I WILL NOT be at YAOI-Con in October (in LA it looks like). I was hoping since EManga (aka DMP) included INCUBUS on their online site, I was hoping
maybe I could get a complimentary Artist Alley table or something, but after sending out some emails to them, I never heard from anyone, so, aw well...
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2 Conventions a year is about the most I can tolerate anyway.
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Oh! my website yayoineko.com has been hacked. I will let you know when its up and running again >.<
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ALSO: If you are looking to purchase my Sherlock Holmes doujinshi, The Modern Prometheus, the LILIN Artbook, or the INCUBUS yaoi manga series,
they will be available at these conventions:  

-Otakon
-GenCon
-Matsuri Con
- AnimeFest
- NY Comic-Con
- AWA (Anime Weekend Atlanta)
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Thank you so much everyone for your support! I hope you like my Tumblr stuff! X3
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For anyone interested: //yayoineko.tumblr.com/  [link]

Like I said, since I decided to get out of Y!Gallery, I decided to post my dirty stuff on Tumbler.
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So, if anyone would like to follow or take a look, feel free!

Thanks everyone for your opinions on my last journal post ^_^
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Heeeey, hey hey *pokes* Anyone here using Tumblr? What's it like?
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In a few days I am deleting my Y!Gallery account and I need a new place to show my X-rated art. I keep getting suggestions to join Tumblr.
I looked at it, and I am guessing its sort of like a Blog?

In case yer wondering, here are the 3 reasons I am deleting my Y!Gallery account:

1. I keep getting suspended by the moderators, and my work keeps getting removed for violations.

2. The flashy Ads on the right and bottom of the site are extremely obnoxious.

3. I get much more traffic and comments here on my DeviantArt Gallery than I do on Y!Gallery--I dunno why, maybe over there my work fell out of favor or something.

So I'm just wondering how Tumblr is for those that are using it to display thier art.

**I am on Paper Demon, but there is hardly any traffic....**

Thanks Very Much! X3
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Phoenix Comic Con Report!
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I apologize that I do not have any doodles to illustrate Phoenix Comic Con, I had to take a couple days to recuperate, I left my room a mess and am trying to clean it as I have more orders of Holmes and the Lilin Artbook coming in, and catch up on emails and other such things.
....So I will try to leave out the little details....
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Thursday:
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--As you saw in the last image posted, my table was a bit plain enough to let me set-up in time for the early opening of the Exhibit halls that Thursday evening (sort of like Preview night).
--I sold one Prometheus book and print before the Hall opened, which was pretty neat I though ^_^
--Before the opening, I drew a doodle of Brent Spiner with kitty ears he had on in a photo of his. I decided to visit him so I wanted to have a new doodle to show him.
Saw him Saturday, details are here:    [link]
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Thursday/Friday:
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--Felt a bit slow but soon picked up a little. I met a nice dude from DeviantArt, Mottenfest. He initiated an Art-Card trade (which I had never done before), and I found it fun to do.
--While working on the card and making more signs for my table, I kept hearing the,"Oh! Here's the yaoi!" XD. Met a few people that recognized me from DA or YGallery.
--I heard the phrase over and over that I very much DISLIKE:  "I'll come back!"  80% of the time they don't, but good thing I already knew that.
--Sold some INCUBUS prints, but predictably the Joker/Creeper and Joker/Creeper/Batman outsold the rest of the prints.
--During Thursday to Saturday, if I left my table, I always took my Ray Stevenson drawing/print with me. No announcements were made on his behalf, yet I was in dumb-ass Hope-mode that I would have the chance to give him the art.
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Saturday:
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--I think the crowd increased for William Shatner's appearance that day, and not until I did inventory that Saturday morning did I realize I only had a few copies left of all the titles I brought with me. Close to noon the last 2 Holmes comics were bought, and later all the INCUBUS books were gone. I was more mystified than pleased, "Did I bring less than I thought I brought? Maybe I did my inventory wrong?" Such a rare thing to sell out of 2 titles, I could not help doubting the situation.   
--I was hoping that my paintings and ink drawings would catch someone's interest, but none were sold.
--Was annoyed by people that had tunnel vision looking only for freebies. Despite the sign that said "Make a donation (any amount), get a print of Judas & Lenn with Fuzz!" displayed right above the print, people kept trying to take one thinking it was free.
--Also realized no one could read signs. Maybe due to over stimulation of the convention, but a lot of people kept overlooking obvious signs I made stating:  "YES, I am the Artist", "Prints are $3.00 each", "All 3 INCUBUS Volumes for $20" (people kept thinking the Incubus books were $20 each), "SOLD OUT", "FREE Postcards". My name was also mistaken as 'YAOI Neko,' instead of 'YAYOI Neko.'
--Finally got down to 1 LILIN artbook left (not counting the worn out 'Table Copy/Sample book). Had some Prometheus left, but sold more than I expected.
--Only got $6 in donations to help with taking pets to the vet. >.<
--When the halls closed at 7pm, I realized I didn't have much left to sell, no one would buy my paintings or drawings, or buy prints of anything other than the Batman/Joker/Creeper print (that I ran out of), so I decided to pack up. Only had an hour to do so, and was one of the last people to exit the hall close to 8pm.
--After a rest, had dinner around 1 am.
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Monday and rest of the week:
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--Got home Sunday.
--Monday, had enough $ to donate to my cousin for school (he's struggling to afford college, can't find a summer job here in town), and for babysitting the fuzzy babies.
--Was able to donate $ to the Angle Fund at the vets office, AND take in Kelly and Corndog (yaay!)--from my own profits, which was fine.
--Had to order more Holmes and LILIN books.
--Took my parents out to eat.
--After I find a B-Day present for the Ol'Man (my Dad), then I will be back to being near broke. >_<;;
--At least I was able to get myself a CD I wanted. ^_^
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'Kay, that's all. Got a bunch of stuff needing to be done that I put off until PCC was over--like room cleaning, holey crap! @_@
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Thank you so much everyone that visited my table at Phoenix Comic Con! Your support of my work helps me order more copies of my comics, helps my fuzzy ones at home, and when I need them, art supplies, among many other advantages. I hope to attend PCC again next year! Thank you so much again! ;_;

-Yayoi Neko

Here is how my table looked before opening hours at Phoenix Comic Con:
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★ I will be at Phoenix Comic Con Memorial Day Weekend  May 24-27. Phoenix, Arizona.
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★ My Table is # 532 ARTIST ALLEY.
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Please don't be fearful of coming by my table, I really appreciate everyone that supports my work! ;_; *cries*
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Phoenix Comic Con website: phoenixcomicon.com
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★ You'll be seeing me @ Anime Weekend Atlanta (AWA)!  I'll be in Artists Alley! ^_^
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AWA website: www.awa-con.com
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UPDATE        April 30, 2012                                           I WILL ONLY BE AT AWA!!
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My INCUBUS yaoi manga, Sherlock Holmes doujinshi, Lilin Artbook, and The Modern Prometheus #1, will be available at the following conventions...
(Just look for the Media Blasters booth in the Exhibit Hall!)

★ FANIME (San Jose CA)----------------- May 25-28                 www.fanime.com
(I WON'T Be be at Fanime).

★ A-KON (Dallas) --------------------------June 1-3                    //a-kon.com/
(I WON'T Be at A-kon).

★ ANIME-EXPO (Los Angeles)-----------June 29-July 2            www.anime-expo.org/
(I WON'T Be at Anime-Expo).

★ OTAKON (Baltimore)------------------- July 27-29                  www.otakon.com/
(I WON'T Be be at Otakon).

★ AWA (Atlanta)--------------------------- September 28-30      www.awa-con.com/
(I WILL BE at AWA! Yaaay!)
If my friends from Demon Fart Cabbage ( demonfartcabbage.deviantart.com ) were not there for me, MTAC would have suuucked! MTAC was enough to make me want to cancel attending any other conventions this year.
Since I paid for my table already, I will reluctantly attend Phoenix Comic Con. If PCC goes terribly just like MTAC, I am keepin' my butt home until who knows when.

I do thank all the people that came to my table though, I greatly appreciate your support and kind comments of my work!

If you wanna see a doodle report of my MTAC experience, go here to see Part I:

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MTAC Omega  April 6th - 8th:    [link]

I will be at MTAC FRIDAY & SATURDAY ONLY.
I will be at MTAC FRIDAY & SATURDAY ONLY.

At my table:
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★ INCUBUS manga 1, 2,3
★ The Modern Prometheus #1
★ LILIN: A Yayoi Neko Artbook  
★ Sherlock Holmes doujinshi
★ Count Enance mini-ashcan comic
★ Paintings and Drawings
★ Prints
★ FREE Postcards

★★★★★★ PRINTS available at MTAC for $3.00 each. There will be a limited supply. ★★★★★★
★★★ BELOW: THESE are just a PORTION of PRINTS I will have. MORE prints will be available at the Convention. ★★★


              
            
       



✪✪✪ There will be a limited supply of prints, AND I WILL BE AT MTAC FRIDAY & SATURDAY ONLY.✪✪✪
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This little poster will be hanging on my display stand so you might look for it to find my table at MTAC. If I do well at MTAC, I hope to get a banner made in time for Phoenix Comic Con.
I suck at designing Xb *thpp*


***Note:  I am shy, a bit reserved, can't talk very loud, and I don't practice eye contact that much (been that way since I was a kid). So I hope I am not taken as uninterested or rude towards you. I am NOT uncomfortable meeting new people, I'm just not use to it. >///< ***

Also: I wanted to give you a quick thank you for all the wonderful understanding and comments you've sent me.

I have decided for now to keep working on INCUBUS #4. I also cannot stand the thought of ceasing production on Prometheus as it means so very much to me.

So, I will see how conventions go and just keep drawing/working on INCUBUS #4 and Prometheus #2. How things are afterwards, we'll see.

And, YES, I will still be attending MTAC and Phoenix Comic Con, and am preparing stuff for MTAC this moment.
I am going to stay off the net for awhile, kinda drains me.

Before I go, I will make my last 'personal' Journal here on DeviantArt. When I get back, all posts will be only non-personal matters (I know you will be relieved by that of course).

Here we go:

Let's say you are in the comicbook buisness for over 8 years but your work was never featured on big comicbook review websites, never praised in numerous articles as 'noteworthy' US yaoi, see minimal fanart of your work, and you never break even in sales at conventions.

If you don't have those things, then you must not be that good, right?

That's how I keep seeing it. Because new artists in the buisness only known for 3 years or less receive the exact opposite of what I mentioned.  
And since I have not after all this time, maybe I should quit drawing, despite it being the only life force I have left (and I mean that).

 I keep thinking I'll end up as one of those artists in Artists Alley that have the same setup every year, but no one is at thier table and they are not selling much because the art/story isn't that interesting (I mean, they really do have bad drawings/storylines). These artists refuse to admit they should try somehting else, or keep hoping one day they will be noticed. Sort of like those actors that go to Hollywood hoping to be noticed by producers but only end up working in a restaurant or porn movies. A big part is because those actors don't have that 'aura' or 'glow' that lights up the screen and brings the script to life and makes them attractive.

I thought I at least had somehting a little different (like everyone else thinks they have), but apparently not.

ENCOURAGEMENT DOESN'T HELP for somehting like this.

If its not sales or popularity that can tell me I'm good enough to keep working on comics, then what can? What does 'patience' have to do with any of it?
If you are not one of the best and your work doesn't mean something to more than a handful of people, then why continue drawing?
It can't be just for myself.

(***Just note I will NOT change my drawing style or content or writing, so try not to suggest it***).


Leave what comments you like. I got some thinking to do.  

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My Artist Alley Application at MTAC Omega was accepted! Yaay! Come by my table and say hello in April 6th-8th:

MTAC Omega: www.mtac.net/

I will be at Phoenix Comic Con, May 24th to 27th (Memorial Day weekend)
I will be somewhere in Artists Alley, so come by and say hello there too!

Phoenix Comic-Con: [link]


Support the Artist~!

With MTAC Omega soon approaching, I have to buy more copies of Sherlock Holmes doujinshi & LILIN Artbook for the convention.
I also need to pay luggage fees at the airport, plus transportation to and from, airport to hotel.
Paying Postage to ship my manga to the hotel in Nashville will have to be done: Holmes doujinshi, LILIN artbook, INCUBUS 1-3, and Prometheus.
I will also need to pay for shipping to restock my INCUBUS books here at home.
And the Least Important, food! Cup o noodles for 3 days (breakfast,lunch, & dinner) sustaines me usually.

If you can't make it to MTAC or Phoenix Comic Con, please Support the Artist and take a look at my manga and Paintings for sale!

I have Paintings displayed on my blog, and will post more soon, and some black and white drawings if I got the time.

See what's for sale here: [link]

Yayoi Neko Blog:  [link]

Paintings are watercolor & acrylic. They are are in UV Protected Polybag Sleeves, and are packed between 2 sheets of cardboard, then bubble wrapped for mailing USPS (United States Postal Office).

Thank you so very much!



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★ ONLINE PURCHASES! Just go to my Blog to order The Modern Prometheus, LILIN artbook, All 3 Volumes of INCUBUS, and Sherlock Holmes doujinshi!

★ I now accept Visa, MasterCard, Discover, or American Express ★

Please go to my Blog to Order My Books Online: [link]


★★ Prometheus #1 NOW AVAILABLE!! ★★  \(ºoº)/
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Prometheus PREVIEW PAGES: [link]

Prometheus ORDER FORM: [link]
ORDER ONLINE: [link]

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★★ My LILIN Artbook is available again! Please go to my blog or go here for details:  [link]

Artbook Sample: [link]
Order Online:  [link]


Also:
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★★ INCUBUS YAOI MANGA SALE! Get All 3 Volumes for $20 (Postage NOT Included) [link]

-USA Postage: $6.00 USD    ($26. TOTAL)
-OVERSEAS Postage: $17.00 USD    ($37 TOTAL)
-CANADA/Mexico Postage: $13.00 USD   ($33 TOTAL)

INCUBUS #1 Preview: [link]
INCUBUS #2 Preview: [link]


INCUBUS #4 Still In Progress (Thank you so very much for your patience!) >_<;;;



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★★ If you have purchased a copy of my new title, The Modern Prometheus #1, and enjoyed it, please feel free to leave a kind comment/review on your blogs, Live Journals, Tumbler, FaceBook, here on DA, or anywhere else you hang out on the net!

I thank everyone so very much for your purchases The Modern Prometheus, INCUBUS manga set, Lilin Artbook, and Sherlock Holmes doujinshi! *bear hugs* ‾‾‾‾
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With much luvs,

--Yayoi Neko


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★ I have a Facebook page, feel free to send Freind requests!
FaceBook [link]




★★★ Please go to my Blog to order online!: [link] ★★★

Hello! If you have purchased a copy of my new title, The Modern Prometheus #1, and enjoyed it, please feel free to leave a kind comment/review on your blogs, Live Journals, Tumbler, FaceBook, here on DA, or anywhere else you hang out on the net!

I thank everyone so very much for your purchases The Modern Prometheus, INCUBUS manga set, Lilin Artbook, and Sherlock Holmes doujinshi! *bear hugs*

With much luvs,

--Yayoi Neko


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★ I have a Facebook page, feel free to send Freind requests!
FaceBook [link]

★ Finally, I can take ONLINE PURCHASES! Just go to my Blog to order The Modern Prometheus, LILIN artbook, All 3 Volumes of INCUBUS, and Sherlock Holmes doujinshi!

★ I now accept Visa, MasterCard, Discover, or American Express ★

Please go to my Blog to Order Books Online: [link]


★★ Prometheus #1 NOW AVAILABLE!! ★★  \(ºoº)/
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Prometheus ORDER FORM: [link]
Prometheus PREVIEW PAGES: [link]
Order online:  [link]


Also:
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★★ My LILIN Artbook is available again! Please go to my blog or go here for details:  [link]

Artbook Sample: [link]
Order Online:  [link]


Also:
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★★ INCUBUS YAOI MANGA SALE! Get All 3 Volumes for $20 (Postage NOT Included) [link]

-USA Postage: $6.00 USD    ($26. TOTAL)
-OVERSEAS Postage: $17.00 USD    ($37 TOTAL)
-CANADA/Mexico Postage: $13.00 USD   ($33 TOTAL)

INCUBUS #1 Preview: [link]
INCUBUS #2 Preview: [link]


INCUBUS #4 Still In Progress (Thank you so very much for your patience!) >_<;;;


★★★ Please go to my Blog to order online!: [link] ★★★



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MTAC Omega Con in April!

It is official! I am going to MTAC Omega in Nashville, TN in April!

PLEASE NOTE I WILL NOT GET TO BE THERE SUNDAY APRIL 8th, my flight leaves early that morning >_<;;

MTAC Omega site:  [link]

Media Blasters will be in ROW C of the exhibit Hall. Map Here: [link]

And also: Before I forget, I would very much like to know you when you come by! I am terrible with names, but I will most likely recognise your avatar! Just describe to me what yours looks like to me (or maybe a small pic of it) at the con and it will be much easier to recall your kind support here from DA ^_^;;
I always feel bad when I can't recall names given to me  X(



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CONVENTION WOES for 2012

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My main source of income to afford anything was from money orders of the sales of my Self-Published titles that my buddies John and Chet sold for me from their Media Blasters (aka Kitty Media and Rare FLix) booth at conventions.

However, my buddies John and Chet were let go this week, and and more people cut next month.

So, I wish very very much they find new jobs in short time.

In selfish mode, without my books promoted/sold at various conventions, I now will not be able to afford traveling anywhere.

Now, I am discouraged of attending any conventions at all. Especially when I don't hear back from conventions I emailed asking if I could be a guest at cons.

Well...I dunno. It won't be so bad staying home again this year.

I can work on INCUBUS #4.




Thank you.

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It is official! I am going to MTAC Omega in Nashville, TN in April! Yaay! I will get to share a booth with the Media Blasters dudes! Yaay!


PLEASE NOTE I WILL NOT GET TO BE THERE SUNDAY APRIL 8th, my flight leaves early that morning >_<;;


MTAC Omega site:  [link]

Media Blasters will be in ROW C of the exhibit Hall. Map Here: [link]


And also: Before I forget, I would very much like to know you when you come by! I am terrible with names, but I will most likely recognise your avatar! Just describe to me what yours looks like to me (or maybe a small pic of it) at the con and it will be much easier to recall your kind support here from DA ^_^;;
I always feel bad when I can't recall names given to me  X(



**I would like to attend Dragon Con, but no information is yet available for Artist Alley Tables**


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Anyone got any recommendations for a convention near the East Coast? Yaoi friendly?

--Nothing in Feburuary or early March, as everyhting is usually sold out by then (hotels, AA tables, registration, etc...)

--AKon in LA and Fanime in San Jose went terrible for me, so I will avoid those conventions.

--I've been to MegaCon, so someplace new.

--I am determined to go to Texas, but not sure which convention there to attend.

--Anime Boston was a candidate, but all Artist Alley tables are on reserve (Sold Out).

--Otakon was considered, but hotels are a bit too picey it seems.

--Expenses can be handled somewhat if a Hotel is within walking distance of the con and room is under $150-$200 a night.


So, if anyone gives a damn, some recommendation would be greatly appreciated ^_^
Even willing to share an Artists Alley table too (much cheaper that way).

Thanks very much ahead of time!

-Yayoi Neko


ALSO:

FACEBOOK! Look me under "Yayoi Neko" and go to the profile picture of the kitty face (Apparently there is more than one Yayoi Neko on FB).

ISSUE #1 OF THE SECRET PROJECT IS DONE: Soon, the classic novel I am illustrating will be revealed when the comicbook is AVAILABLE in JANUARY 2012.  
Issue #2 of the secret project will be on hold until INCUBUS #4 is done.

INCUBUS #4 NOW IN PROGRESS AGAIN:
Currently I am reading, researching, and writing the script for #4, then will get back to the drawing of it.
I apologise for the long-ass time hiatus >_<;;;




>>>>>>>> RESTOCK of SHERLOCK HOLMES DOUJINSHI !! Again Available!<<<


If you live in the US, download, print, fill it out the order form, and mail it to me with payment:

Holmes Order form: [link]


If you live Overseas and want to order a Holmes doujinshi, please email me thundertori@yahoo.com for details, or send me a message here on DeviantArt.

Thanks again everyone!! <3
  • Mood: Distracted
Hello!

First of all, I have a Facebook account. Just type in "Yayoi Neko" and go to the profile picture of the kitty face (Apparently there is more than one Yayoi Neko on FB).

PLEASE SEND ME A MESSAGE WITH YOUR FRIEND REQUEST. This way I know you are aware of the kind of art I do and I know you are not some weird spam account.

'Kay:

A short update of the status of my secret project. I am finally adding dialogue and am working to get issue #1 of the comicbok/manga done before X-mas. However, upon completion, there is a waiting period of about a month for the book to be published and delivered to me. >_<

Once I have this new project out of the way, issue #2 it will be put on hold as I get back to work on INCUBUS #4.


I plan on attending conventions again in 2012, but still need to decide which ones to go to. Texas and somewhere on the East coast are first 2 choices.
To make it to these conventions I hope there are enough funds gathered from sales of the new comicbook to travel. That would be awesome.

Also, there is a restock of the Sherlock Holmes doujinshi, so if you want to order one, feel free to do so. If you live in the US, download, print, fill it out the order form, and mail it to me with payment:

Holmes Order form:  [link]

If you live Overseas and want to order a Holmes doujinshi, please email me thundertori@yahoo.com for details, or send me a message here on DeviantArt.

TIme to get back to work on the comicbook, and once it is available, then I will finally reveal its title.


I greatly appreciate everyone being patient with me on this and waiting for INCUBUS #4.
Thank you!!

---Yayoi Neko
  • Mood: Nervous
Thank you so much everyone for your support of my work at AnimeFest in Texas last weekend!  X3

I am still pencilling and inking and researching for my projects, and I have to admit I am spending more time on the Secret project than on INCUBUS #4.

First of all, changing back and forth from the Secret Projects detailed art to INCUBUS's simpler art, was not as easy as I thought it would be, so it is best to
concentrate on one project at a time.

Second, INCUBUS takes a lot of emotional/psychological energy out of me, its not something I can just jump into anytime--it takes time to prepare
for the onslaught of cognitive disruption sludge, of which requires my full concentration.

Third, the major work of the Secret project is a refreshing change from 5 years of working on INCUBUS.

I must ask for your forgiveness in INCUBUS #4 being delayed further, but please know the story is still continuing!

For the moment, as a break from the demands of the Secret project and everyday anxieties (plus plain impatientence), I found a bit of relief in producing a
'freely' drawn little comic called COUNT ENANCE.

'Freely drawn' means the comic did not demand my absolute attention to draftmanship, as it was drawn entirely with felt tip/ballpoint pens
with a working area about 5.5 inches x 8.5 in., has little dialogue and kind of made up as I go along.

For the fact Count Enance is not major work, done more on a whim/hobby/muse and drawn entirely in bed (before bedtime), is the reason I gave the title of
the mini-comic as "Lazy Ass SourPuss Comix presents..." XD


Details:
Mini-comicbook (ashcan) 4.25"x5.5"
'Ashcan' (to my own definition) means a cheap reproduction produced by xerox machine and put together by hand.

Yaoi/Bara Comic is Rated PG-13 for now, but will scale up to NC-17 in the future.

Coming soon, as soon as next week hopefully (September 12th to the 16th).


Again, I express my appreciation of everyones purchases of my Sherlock Holmes doujinshi and Lilin Artbook! Thank you so much! <3

Sincerely, Yayoi Neko


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UPDATE:  SEPTEMBER 10th , 2011

+++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!++++++++
+++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!++++++++
+++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!++++++++


You can also order the Holmes doujinshi from me. Order form is here: [link]


Lilin Artbook only availabe at conventions until further notice. I have none to sell from home right now, but I wil hopefully soon!


***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be


Thanks very much for to those that have purchased my Sherlock Holmes doujinshi and the LILIN artbooks and INCUBUS manga!
I greatly appreciate your support!  X3



AWA - Atlanta Sept 30 - Oct 2
NY Comicon NYC Oct 14-16
AnimeBanzai - SLC Oct 21-23
Youmacon - Detroit Oct 21-23
Yaoicon - S.F. (around Halloween)
Nekocon - Va (around 11/4)
Anime USA - DC (around 11/11)

****I will not be attending YAOI-CON this year.****
  • Mood: Nervous
Sorry for no new updates, I've been busy penciling, inking and researching stuff for my comic books/manga. I hope to post some preview (work in profgress) images soon of INCUBUS #4 and the Secret Project.

Art Sale (original paintings, Not prints): [link]



***IF POSSIBLE, PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE "I WISH I COULD GET ONE BUT...." COMMENTS. It would be much appreciated, thank you! ^_^***



Since I am not attending conventions this year, I am not available to sell anything in person >_<

I am hoping I can sell a couple of paintings to act as financial aid for 2 of my cats ('Momma Kitty' and 'Cornelius') to visit the Veterinarian for their annual physical exam and shots.

It can also help pay for bags of Hypo-allergic Dog food for Kelly (my black lab) who developed allergies 2 years ago from regular food and airborne allergies.

Also, I am running low on drawing ink, and low on paper I use for drawing comic books/manga.

I feel ashamed for listing my reasons for financial aid, but I felt need to explain my situation.

So, if anyone would like to purchase a painting, please email me: thundertori@yahoo.com

OR send me a personal message here on Deviant Art.


***IF POSSIBLE, PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE "I WISH I COULD GET ONE BUT...." COMMENTS. It would be much appreciated, thank you! ^_^***




Thank you very much!

-Yayoi Neko



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UPDATE:  August 5th, 2011

+++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!++++++++
+++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!++++++++
+++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!++++++++


You can also order the Holmes doujinshi from me. Order form is here: [link]


Lilin Artbook only availabe at conventions until further notice. I have none to sell from home right now, but I wil hopefully soon!


***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be


Thanks very much for to those that have purchased my Sherlock Holmes doujinshi and the LILIN artbooks and INCUBUS manga!
I greatly appreciate your support!  X3


GenCon - Indianapolis Aug 4-7
AnimeVegas - NV Sept 2-4
AnimeFest - Dallas TX Sept 2-5
AWA - Atlanta Sept 30 - Oct 2
NY Comicon NYC Oct 14-16
AnimeBanzai - SLC Oct 21-23
Youmacon - Detroit Oct 21-23
Yaoicon - S.F. (around Halloween)
Nekocon - Va (around 11/4)
Anime USA - DC (around 11/11)

****I will not be attending YAOI-CON this year.****
  • Mood: Nervous
++++++++++++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!+++++++++++++++
++++++++++++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!+++++++++++++++
++++++++++++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI NOW AVAILABLE!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE ONLY @ CONVENTIONS!!!+++++++++++++++

Lilin Artbook only availabe at conventions until further notice. I have none to sell from home right noe, but I wil hopefully soon!

***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be


Thanks very much for your support! X3


A-Kon - Dallas TX June 10-12
AnimeNext - NJ June 10-12
AnimeExpo - Los Angeles July 1-4
Connecticon - Harftord July 8-10
Comicon - San Diego July 20-24
Otakon - Baltimore July 29-31
GenCon - Indianapolis Aug 4-7
AnimeVegas - NV Sept 2-4
AnimeFest - Dallas TX Sept 2-5
AWA - Atlanta Sept 30 - Oct 2
NY Comicon NYC Oct 14-16
AnimeBanzai - SLC Oct 21-23
Youmacon - Detroit Oct 21-23
Yaoicon - S.F. (around Halloween)
Nekocon - Va (around 11/4)
Anime USA - DC (around 11/11)
  • Mood: Nervous
***Siigghhh**

So for 3 weeks I study/research/write/send out SOS emails to animal welfare organizations/making calls after calls, I loose sleep, loose appetite, get nasueous trying to eat, get so terrified of the meeting, Sunday evening I tremble and cry in absolute fear and felt like throwing up so many times. I got some comfort from my paretnts, but they really were only worried about my not eating, nothing else seemed to bother them at all.

Then Monday, 10 am meeting. The Owner is a no show. Had to talk to the Office lady again.

In short, I was laughed at by the Mayor and Office Lady, kept repeating my suggestions/propositions were 'not making sense' or accusing me of being too emotinal to make sense (when believe me, of those that know me, I have a small voice, and its hard for me to speak loud), but I was making perfect sense and straight faced, yet being disrespected and they were playing dumb. They ignored my pointing out thier contradictions and said, to deal with a buisness matter (I just wanted to make some 'suggestions' and ask that the strays I feed stop being targeted with thier traps) or politics, i had to learn to kiss butt before asking or submitting anything to a corporate relation.

When I tried to talk on equal terms, they thought I was being disrespectful. When I was trying to justify my surveys' data and apply my defence, they said I was being rude.

Anyway, after being talked down upon and condensended and reprimanded (by the office lady and City mayor), all i got was what the Office lady told me at the begining that no traps would be set near our home anymore.

As for the suggestions I had to help solve thier 'cat populatoin explosion' (since Trap/Fix/Release isn;t allowed in the City) I doubt the office lady will fax my letter to the main honcho. We doubt she's told her boss anything about the situation and we suspect she lied about him coming to the meeting.

But if she does send the fax, i could get a crude mean email in the future.

I still fear the safety of the animals and my parents, like if I even try to get back to work or 'put my gaurd down', I feel something bad will happen.

Now, EVEN if the Office Lady told me the Owner would be arriving in town sometime, I would pass on seeing him. I can't kiss butt or grovel to a Donald Trump wanna-be. I'd be causing more trouble, and that is what people that think big of themselves expect when meeting a 'layman'. And we'd only talk over and over in circles like we did today.

I don;t trust the Managment. I just hope the animals and my parents won;t be harrassed in the future.


I'm so tired of saying bad things about people.

I want to work on manga, but my room has been neglected, no drawing or doodling or reading (only read stuff about the matter at hand), so much to catch up on and still worrying.
My appetite has finally returned, but I still get nauseous and can't eat very much yet.

Its not somehting to be proud of, but after asking, I finally found something that I have in comon with my sibling and momma. We can't kiss butt.

We'll kick butt, but we can't kiss butt.

Can't belive I inherited that attitude from my Mom. whu...?


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++++++++++++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI SOLD OUT UNTIL NEXT MONTH!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE!!+++++++++++++++
++++++++++++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI SOLD OUT UNTIL NEXT MONTH!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE!!+++++++++++++++
++++++++++++++++SHERLOCK DOUJINSHI SOLD OUT UNTIL NEXT MONTH!! LILIN ARTBOOK AVAILABLE!!+++++++++++++++


***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be
***I WILL NOT BE AT THESE CONVENTIONS***But my books will be


Thanks very much for your support! X3

AnimeCentral - Chicago May 20-22
Fanime - San Jose CA May 27-30
AnimeNorth - Canada May 27-29
A-Kon - Dallas TX June 10-12
AnimeNext - NJ June 10-12
AnimeExpo - Los Angeles July 1-4
Connecticon - Harftord July 8-10
Comicon - San Diego July 20-24
Otakon - Baltimore July 29-31
GenCon - Indianapolis Aug 4-7
AnimeVegas - NV Sept 2-4
AnimeFest - Dallas TX Sept 2-5
AWA - Atlanta Sept 30 - Oct 2
NY Comicon NYC Oct 14-16
AnimeBanzai - SLC Oct 21-23
Youmacon - Detroit Oct 21-23
Yaoicon - S.F. (around Halloween)
Nekocon - Va (around 11/4)
Anime USA - DC (around 11/11)
  • Mood: Isolated
My Meeting with the manager is on Monday May 9th at 10am. I am terrified. For the past 2 weeks in fear the cats saftey I've become insomniac, and I get nauseus when I want to eat.

From what I have heard and read, it seems a Trap Fix Release program is a no go in the City at all. If the Manager does not allow me to keep feeding the 2 strays that do not contribute to this exaggerated 'cat population explosion', and continues to try to trap them, I have decided I will move to a location I would rather not say.

Even if the meeting went in my favor I would still have to move.
The manager is a mutimillionare.  After the meeting, he could poison the cats or harrass my family from spite or retaliation becasue his lawyers can get him out of anything.
So even if I get permission to feed the 2 stays (that are partly feral, 'unadoptable'), I will be in constant fear of thier safety, and for the animals I own.

I don't think the animals are safe in this residence here anymore, and since they provide a kind of therapy for me, this continued mental anguish of fearing for thier lives is becoming too much to bear.

So many horror stories about the manager worsens my fears, and I belive him to be a white-collar psychopath, but only a psychologist can diagnose that.

There will be no internet access where I will move, only electricity.


So my new question is this:

Would anyone be willling to help me by buying my artwork so it can help me build a large chain-link kitty house enclosure (40 feet long x 20 ft wide x 10 ft high)?
I will need to build one to house 3 kitties. It needs to be enclosed because there are many predators out there, high and low.
I will have to provide thier own seperate insulated houses to sleep protected in cold and heat.
The kitty house will also need trees/bushes to shade them and climb and hide in to feel secure. Hopefully they will use thier own litter box.
The I want to build a kind of kitty hang out there they can keep off the ground from ants and heat and have a dry place to be in winter.

It will be sad to not have internet access, so emails and orders will be slowed even more as I will only be able to come home on weekends to check my email and mail.
So will my posting stuff here or on my website be slowed down.

Living alone out there is frighteneing, not so much of it being so desolate, but because I feel not ready to live by myself yet.

When I was in school, I had classes to distract me from my depression, but as I get older, my depression seems to worsen, which is why after I graduated and moved to Texas, I had to leave San Antonio and be brought home as I was thinking how easy it would be to go the wooded area behind my then apartment complex and blow my brains out.


I do not feel safe being alone yet because my parents distract me enough to think of self-extermination.

Hopefully, out there, taking care of the animals and maintaining chores as hauling water and cleaning the little house and working on my manga will be enough to keep me distracted.

I was hoping to do a web comic of TOBIAS, but that seems unlikely now without proper resources.

It may seen unreasonable to do all this for the sake of a few kitties, but as I said, looking after them reminds me to look after myself, and watching and playing and petting them is calming and makes me at ease, as I said, they mitigate my mental disorders. To see them killed, harrassed, or in danger is detrimental to me.

My local vet was able to give the male kitty a discount neuter, and they are kind enough to keep an eye on him for me until Monday, because they know I am frightened that if he goes back outside into my neighborhood, the managment will see him and try to get rid of him again, and maybe not even taking him to the shelter next time, but just destroying him themselves.

Wilber and Mushroom are both partly feral. They do not like being indoors, do not like being picked up, and only pet for a little bit, but will be affectionate sometimes. Corndog, who has been our cat for over 10 years wil come with me also, because although he is neutered, he doesn't like indoors either and roams close in the neighborhood. That makes him a likely target for the managment.

Well, I have to write out a proposal for Monday for the meeting.

-Yayoi
  • Mood: Isolated
***The list of conventions my books will be available can be found in my journal archive, and will be reposted after awhile**

I will keep this intro short to come to the point:

My neighborhood has a problem with stray cats and people that cannot afford vetinary care to get thier pets spayed/neutered. My Residence Manager wants to trap the feral/stray cats and take them to the local animal shelter. However, most adult feral cats cannot be domesticated (but if thety can it takes an aweful long time), and strays that were abandoned/abused will take too long to get use to a new caretaker. Both berhaviors lable the cats 'nonadoptable', and therefore, to save money and make cage room, these captured cats will be euthenized.

What I am trying to do is get my manager to reconsider his actions and propose alternatives to Trap and Kill. Arizona has a Trap/Fix/Release Program:
[link]
They and volenteers trap feral and stray cats, check thier health, spay/neuter, and vaccinate, then release them to their territory. This reduces the feral/stray cat population, thier fighting,  and thier spraying/urine marking (which is a common complaint in my neighborhood).

I also want to propose to help the stray problem is to provide affordable vet care to the residence of where I live by a mobile vet clinic:
[link]

The cause of so many strays is all due to people not fixing thier pets, which results in unwanted animals. Many owners are discouraged to do so because they are unable to afford it.

However, although the Trap/Fix/release and Mobile Vet Clinic are programs that exsist in Arizona, both programs are too low on funds to provide thier services to this rurual community of mine.

Now my Question:


In the future, would anyone be willing to help me in buying my original artwork so all the proceeds could help fund a Trap/Fix/Release and Mobile Vet Clinic Program to come to my neighborhood?


PLEASE LEAVE ALL COMMENTS/ANSWERS RELATED TO THE QUESTION, I do not want this to be an animal activists argument.

Thank you!

-Yayoi

PS: If I still cannot get get enough fund for a mobil clinic or a tfr program to come down, I will try to do it myself with volenteers. Just gather the kitties in seperate cages and transport them to Flagstaff, get them fixed, and take them back to thier owners, or to the area we caught them from. Probably go at one neighborhood at a time, and probably take a week. I have no idea yet. That is what I will be working on in the proposal all week to get it ready for the meeting with the manager. I have to research how much the city spends on capturig cats, vaccinating/euthenizing them, and compare that to reduction of population. Gotta take surveys of how many strays/feral in my neighborhood, that kind of thing....lots of work to do and I'm scared as hell about facing the Manager with only me and the City Mayor there to learn about the proposals I'm taking about (I asked him if he could attend for it might benefit the citizens of the town overall and be applied outside of the residence I live in or see the results watching how it goes here first).

But of the meeting goes bad and gets no where, and I can't get enough monet for any program, I am prepared to move out into the desert with the kitties (this residence only allows 2 pets per household) and build a kitty playhouse thingy (like a giant bird cage), maybe 20 feet by 40 feet and 12 feet tall, filled with trees and bushes and insulated shelters, a giant litter box, and a 'playground' so Wilber, Mushroom, and Corndog can live as they like without dirty looks from the Management. There is electriciry, but no running water, and no internet access---but giving those up do not feel a big deal if I can keep the strays and the kitty I own (Corndog) from traps and safe. I could probably get more work done out there XD. Just take longer for me to get orders filled out though >_< Besides, running water is easy to create without electricity or a pump. Just let gravity do its job.

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